Just some stuff

I'm reading this book called Soul Cravings by Erwin McManus. Honestly... it's pretty good, but it's also one of those books I almost hate to read. I am discovering more and more that I'm pretty screwed up. I feel like God has done such an amazing work in my life over the past few years, but then I read a chapter in this book and I'm like dang... I've got a long way to go. I am realizing how much Love plays a huge part in my life. I don't mean a romantic relationship in my life right now... I mean a deep acceptance and purpose. I feel I look for it all the time... around each corner and it is a very allusive find. And then I have someone make a comment like was made today. It was like someone punching me in the chest. It seemed to be so well placed and uncalled for. painful really. I don't remember the last time someone actually took a shot like this. Again... a reminder I'm screwed up. I can already feel this blog not being the most up lifting... hearty writing ever. I'm sorry if you have come here for a pick me up :) I'm kidding mostly. We just started the first part of our new series for the fall called "DeLIVErance". I am very happy with where we are going with this particular 3 weeker... I think it really hits a lot of buttons that are very close to home. I pray God uses it to really spark some rescue in the lives of student who desperately need a touch from Jesus Christ. I am particularly "haunted" by a passage from Romans 6:19 I believe. It says we are slaves to whomever we obey. Who do I obey most of the time? I fear most of the time I am obeying my self. I mean even the simple slogan from Sprite... "Obey your thirst"? We would be slaves to our thirst. Stupid?? Maybe... but a lot of us are slaves to more ridiculous things. X-box, ESPN, the Mall, friends, sexuality, cheeseburgers, sleep and even more. This idea of slavery leaves a very bad taste in my mouth... good thing I think.

I also had one of the most heartbreaking conversations I have ever been a part of today at the church. One of our former students just had a tragedy hit their family. We met with this person and afterward my heart was just so sad for them. I cried for them. I think it seemed to be all I could do. I hate that. I would much rather help fix something. So painful as well. Such a wake up call to how I am using the days God has given me to live. I am thankful for this day that was given to me. I'm gonna lay down to bed and prepare for the next one. Meaning tomorrow.

I'm out.

Man I love Sushi

So last night I took 4 of my middle school guys to get sushi in town at a place called Osaka Inn. Two things... one Osaka is not great sushi, two none of the guys who wanted to go to Osaka so bad to get sushi got any sushi. Middle schoolers. All in all it was a very fun time and I it seems to me that they are all really growing to love Jesus more and more. We had a really sweet college group last night in which we decided there are things in the world that make us angry.... and that is ok. It all rides on what we do with our anger. Some things are worth getting angry about. We decided to start a facebook site for our call to action in helping those in need. In other news... I bought a new day planner last night. Very important purchase that I hope I will make the most of. The past few days have been great, but also a bit sad in the realizing that Wade Joye is truly gone. I'm gonna miss working with him soooo much. I pray God continues to bless and encourage him in Charlotte, but we will miss him. Today means final prep for the Dominican Republic mission trip which leaves on Sunday. My mother, Callie Alexander and I will be shopping till we be dropping today to get our final ingredients to make this trip a success. Good day.... good day.

Trevor